Though we plan and arrange to our heart's content, there are unexpected twists and turns that change our paths. That has been my fate the past few months.

I could not have said that this was a destination for me, or even a turn in the road ahead. That is not in my skill to see. Life has changed and is slowly falling away to make room for new. Old thought patterns, choices, and the people around have parted away and I will not predict what will come in their place. I thank those that have been, for I do not hate and have learned many things. Now my focus must be myself, my life, and my choices, come what may.

I will not stand to the side and watch life stroll by without touching me. I will do what I feel must be done. If necessary, I will walk away because it is my choice and right. I cannot walk someone's path for them. I am not them or their mother. I cannot save anyone if I'm incapable of preserving myself.

Though the choices I have made may appear simple and quick, they are not. I have been standing on the abyss, dangling over the edge. I have felt the winds of change pulling, pushing, tugging at me. Whether to fly or to fall, I know not. I have leaped and still know not whether I will crash or soar. Only time, effort, will, and faith will tell.